She gave all she could

She gave love to those who felt unloveable

She gave hugs to those who lacked connection

She gave support to those who felt weak

She gave positivity to those who felt low

She held their hands as they navigated fear

She listened to those who felt unheard

She gave hope to those who felt helpless

Then came life

It swept in and chipped at her soul

Challenge after challenge, it eroded her edge

She began to fade

The energy she lovingly gave was gone

The positivity she shared diminished

Fragments of her soul blew away on the wind

She closed her weary eyes, her ancestors and guides appeared

They stroked her, wrapped her in blankets and fed her soup

They rubbed her feet and hugged her

They gently held her hand as she walked

They showed her, her beauty and filled her soul

Piece by piece they put her back together

A different and beautiful masterpiece

Only then did she realise she was enough

She was loved

She is love

All is Well

She sits and stares, her heart heavy waiting for tears.
No reason why, just ready to release
She doesn’t run, she sits
She feels, she allows
She breathes, they arrive, they fall down her cheeks.
She doesn’t question or figure out.
She simply breathes.
All is well, all is happening as it should.

Poem by Susi McWilliam

Take a Breath my Love, Sip Your Tea by Susi McWiliam

Take a breath my love, sip your tea,
Allow yourself space to process,
Allow yourself space to rest,
Do you know that you are a miracle
An infinite spark
Lets pause and reflect on that a moment
For you are majestic, bright and wonderful
So take a breath my love, smile and sip your tea

Life is softening

What if you wake and move gently into your day

Give up the harsh struggle and pain

You are being offered another way

Life is softening

What if you place your hands over your womb and give thanks to this space of creation. Give thanks to your parents, elders, ancestors and self

Life is softening

What if instead of illness, dis-ease, and uncomfortable sensations. You chose I am healing, I am growing, my health improves daily.

Life is softening

What if instead of fighting, hustling, pushing. You could rest, explore with curiosity, seek support and solutions.

Life is softening.

What if the support you’re seeking is right beneath your feet from Mother Earth herself. What if the beauty you’re seeking is right above you in father sky. What if the thoughts you are desiring can be changed. Ask and you shall receive.

Life is softening

Release, release, trust and have faith

Because life is softening

No one has the right to know your business

No one has to like you

No one will know how you feel

No one will understand how your mind works

No one will see the same beauty you see

No one will feel the same pain you feel

No one will laugh the way you laugh

No one will sing the way you sing

No one will live the same life as you

No one will ever love the way you love

Remember no one will ever be you

Someone, you are someone

I had a revelation today. I am currently working through Julia Cameron’s, The Artists Way, morning pages and it's bloody challenging writing everyday in this way. But every day once you get the petulant, child out of the way i.e this is hard, there’s so many others things i could be doing, why did I decide to do this, I could just stop etc etc , there is always a nugget of something appears, a poem, an inspired thought, an alignment to who you truly are.

I am a hugely sensitive and emotional person and during this period of ill health I have really felt a little lost, overwhelmed by my symptoms, emotions and pain. But what I have come to realise and always do when healing is that it is all necessary.

There have been many times where all I have wanted to do is sit under the trees, reiki the earth, or just be close to nature. This is when I feel most myself. Truly me. There is also the business me, the money maker, the marketer, the supporter, the always...

When The Healing Gets Too Much, Grab Some Tootie Fruities and Remember Who You Are

As a self confessed self development and spiritual junkie one thing I have learnt the hard way is sometimes, you can be doing too much self development. Sounds confusing right. Are you thinking but Susi, surely improving myself is a good thing?

Yes it is great to look at old patterns that aren't serving you, mindset blocks that are holding you back, working through traumas big and small, maybe revisiting subjects and issues that you’d buried. Inner child work, looking back at your childhood and how this has shaped who you are. The list goes on and you can dig deeper and deeper and deeper. But what I would say is that there can be a dark side to this.

Yes looking at the hard things is important, this is often called shadow work. Looking at the sides of you, you want to hide, the parts of you where you maybe feel shame, guilt and less than. The parts you don't want others to...

Susi what crystals would you suggest for meditation and how would you use them? This is a question that often comes up towards the end of my 5 weeks to Calm course, and from people within my membership space so I thought I would pop it all together in this blog for you.

Adding additional things to our meditation practice such as crystals and essential oils (next blog soon!) can add a great support, depth and new dimension to your meditation session. I’ve made some suggestions of crystals you could use for certain supports however I would caveat that with there is nothing more powerful when selecting a crystal than using your intuition.

Although I have done a small crystals course, my journey to using crystals has been incredible. I have nearly always gone with my gut during selection and then found out the meaning of that crystal after. I would say 99% of the time I’m like wow, that makes so much sense. The same with essential oils actually too. Stick to...

Hello My Lovely’s,

I’ve created this guide to support you during this difficult period. We all endure periods through our lives of uncertainty and although this handbook has been created during this unprecedented times it is valuable at anytime.

A very brief intro to me. I’m Susi McWilliam, Author, Speaker, Anxiety Expert, Meditation and Mindfulness Coach, Advanced Reiki Healer, Essential Oil Enthusiast, Qualified Relax Kids Coach, Life and Spiritual Coach and Founder of the Be Free Coaching method for Anxiety, Stress and Depression. I own and run The Sanctuary a Wellbeing, Healing and Creative space in Belhelvie, North east Scotland. I personally had struggled with anxiety and panic attacks from the age of 15, suffered periods of depression and ill health for almost 2 decades. I now support others in these areas educating in support tools for mental, emotional, physical and spiritual health.

A little bit about uncertainty. As human beings we have...