As the darker months approach and the days feel shorter many of us can struggle with this change in lights and also routine. Some people may have to leave for work in darkness and return home in darkness. Through this blog my intention is to share some ideas so that we can learn to love this time of year. Release the overwhelm and low moods and nestle into what has the potential to be a beautiful and introspective period. 

The winter months can feel jam packed with expectation, commitments and things to do before the year ends. This can add to what already feels like a shortening of time. 

Within the UK and countries with little light SAD seasonal affective disorder or winter depression as it is sometimes called can begin to appear. With symptoms such as;

Continuous Low mood

Low sex drive

Craving sweet and carbohydrate based foods

A desire to sleep longer

Feeling irritable 

Struggling to concentrate

Feeling despair

As I write these symptoms I am...

I’ve had the strangest experience last month and I can only liken it to when I had really bad anxiety. A little back story. For over two years I have been in some form of ill health, not feeling like me, lacking vitality, anxiety, balance issues, hormonal stuff etc etc. 

To be honest I had moved into a space of acceptance that this was how it was going to be. Not in a defeatist way, just accepting and loving that this may be my new normal and that I could still live an incredible life despite the challenges. 

I would still do things to help myself and continue to research, learn and discover things that may help. I would wake each morning and say every day my body is healing, my health just gets better and better. 

And guess what it did! I was feeling the best I have felt in years. I was doing things I hadn’t done in ages, shopping in busy places, having longer days out, horse riding, weight training, driving further anxiety free. 

So it came as a...

You can also listen to an extended version of this on the Be Free Podcast. 

Do your holidays leave you yearning to return to your routines or tired and jaded wishing they were longer. I love time away from routine days with no plans. Slower pace trying new things, and often reflecting on where I'm at with life. What's working and what's not. I took a week off work last week as I really wanted some spaciousness time to step back, rest and review when I'm at. 

We've had a lot of change this year moving house moving business family stuff and healing. I felt I needed this time to land. The summer holidays has passed in a flash, however it didn't quite work out like I imagined. I am left yearning for that holiday feeling of rest and reflection.

So I thought I'd share how I'm going to give myself some holiday benefits without taking a holiday per se. Holidays are often the perfect antidote for stress, overwhelm, anxiety. Escaping from the pressures of life and...

Showing Up

I am am proud of you, I know how hard it is. I see you and well done. I am sending so much love to those who are........

Showing up through illness

Showing up through pain

Showing up through anxiety

Showing up through not feeling good enough

Showing up through healing

Showing up through fear

Showing up through recovery

Showing up through depression

Showing up through trauma

Showing up through fatigue

May miracles and magic await your honest declaration of determination and commitment to life. With so much love and admiration.

You are an inspiration

Love Susi xx

Don’t really know where to start with this but I feel really called to write this for my own benefit. My nervous system is pretty wired just now, challenging myself with new things, triggering things and pushing through fear to do the things I enjoy and want to do. 

The frustration and sadness comes and goes. Should I take anti anxiety medication, am I disabled. This PPPD stuff may be is what my life will be like forever and I am determined if that is the case that I live fully. The doctors for the past 2 years have been suggesting anti anxiety medication and the main medical tool for PPPD rehab is anti anxiety meds, coupled with vestibular physio. I’m still not sure I’ve fought that for 3 decades do I really want to do that now? I am actually happy with my life its just when I cant do things I used to or people ask me to do things and I have to try explain my limitations. It’s uncomfortable and quite humiliating. 

Mindfulness and all...

Cycle Tracking and Working with Your Menstrual Cycle

This blog and podcast have been a long time coming. I have mentioned it so many times and I know you have all been keen to hear then I forget. But I always come back to wanting to share this process with you as it is something I have found completely invaluable. 

This process has given me such a deep understanding of myself, built more compassion for self and self love. It has enabled me to speak confidently to my doctor about my perimenopausal symptoms. To enable me to understand my mood and emotions and how these relate to my cycle and also to plan my work and life better so I am showing up best for myself and others. 

I do have to say this is not an overnight process and does take time to build a picture. You will find it so fascinating and powerful once you connect and tune in. 

Brief intro to your menstrual cycle. I will add that should you not have a menstrual cycle you can use the...

Hello how are you? Today I wanted to share some top tips for those new to meditation, although this may be a helpful reminder to more seasoned meditators too. 

This week I have taught around 50 people meditation and interestingly about 25 of those had never meditated before. I’m super excited by this and delighted that many people are now looking to support themselves in this way. I could harp on all day about the benefits of meditation (I’ll save that for another blog ;)). 

As we start meditation for the first time we can encounter so many things and I wanted to give some top tips and dispel some myths too. 

Tip 1: Distractions are normal. Yes I know we think we have to be seated still cross legged, mind clear like a buddha however this isn’t really the case. Our brains are primal and their first goal is to keep you safe. So your brain will be running all sorts of thoughts to stop you from sitting still. You may get frustrated...

Yesterday I posted an emotional video on social media. I didn’t do this for sympathy as I was not sad or seeking solution. I was demonstrating that we all feel emotions. Emotions are our road maps. Anxiety, ill health, overwhelm are all road maps and keys to where we are out of alignment or have something to learn. It is so necessary to feel the pain. To listen to what our heart, mind and body are trying to tell us.

I’m not saying we spend our days wallowing in pain, but what we do is we look at our pain and discomfort with curiosity and...

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There’s so much learnings available to us, from nature, ourselves, our work and the people we meet. Let’s look at Autumn and release what is no longer serving us. Give gratitude and thanks to all we’ve learned, done and created through Spring and Summer. Proud of you all. Love and Live Your Light Susi xxx

I am currently taking part in a writing challenge, writing everyday in January. This has given me so much. My creativity is back in full flow. What I would say is writing for me offers a chance to tune in and connect to what's important. This week that has been paramount as I began to question my purpose. 

 I was thankfully guided back when I was asked the following question; Why do you want to help people? 

My response was this. It makes me buzz when people have a breakthrough and see themselves differently. It's true it sets my heart on fire. I grabbed my journal and below is what arose.

What if you Saw you as I See You? by Susi McWilliam

What if you Saw you as I See You?

Kind, compassionate yet tired,

All the people you support at the detriment of yourself.

Your tired my love, I want to offer you rest.

But not rest as you know it.

A powerful rest, empowering rest.

An eternal rest and break from who you thought you needed to be.

I want to show you a life you...